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Lily Collins is speaking her piece.
After 27 years spent handling her famous father’s limelight—and all the personal challenges that came with it—the Golden Globe-nominated actress is telling Phil Collins exactly how she feels about him today.
In a letter written in her new memoir, Unfiltered: No Shame, No Regrets, Just Me, with excerpts published by The Daily Mail, the star puts it all out on the table.
“We all make choices and, although I don’t excuse some of yours, at the end of the day we can’t rewrite the past,” she penned. “I’m learning how to accept your actions and vocalise how they made me feel. I accept and honour the sadness and anger I felt toward the things you did or didn’t do, did or didn’t give me.”
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The Grammy-winning musician, who was married three times and fathered five children, welcomed Lily with his second wife, Jill Tavelman, in 1989, and the two divorced a few years later. During their 12-year marriage, Phil was unfaithful and reflected on the infidelity in his 2016 memoir, Not Dead Yet.
At a point, she addresses her father’s divorce from his third wife, Orianne Cevey, and how the split influenced her battle with eating disorders. “Not only did I start viewing myself differently physically, but I began limiting my happiness by controlling my eating habits,” she revealed. “I couldn’t handle the pain and confusion surrounding my dad’s divorce, and I was having a hard time balancing being a teenager with pursuing two different grown-up careers.”
“Many of my deepest insecurities stem from these issues with my dad,” the actress admitted in the book.
Despite the singer’s personal blunders and the toll they took on his daughter, Lily looks forward to their future and all the possibility it holds.
“I forgive you for not always being there when I needed and for not being the dad I expected,” she wrote. “I forgive the mistakes you made. And although it may seem like it’s too late, it’s not. There’s still so much time to move forward.”
Published at Tue, 07 Mar 2017 16:08:41 +0000
The 31-year-old singer, who is expecting a child with husband Russell Wilson, bares her baby bump in a sexy photo shoot for the fashion magazine. Ciara won’t reveal when she’s due, but jokes she has two babies on the way. Says the “Get Up” singer, “I got this baby and my album.”
Since marrying the Seattle Seahawks quarterback last spring, Ciara says their relationship is “even greater” than when they began dating in early 2015. “When you know they’re going to be your champion, always in the corner…” she says, trailing off.
After a messy, public breakup with Future, Wilson’s calm demeanor was a welcome change for Ciara. “If someone’s not supporting you and your vision and your dream—whether it’s your relationship partner, your friend, whomever—then you’ve got to make sure to keep it moving,” the singer says. “If people aren’t lifting you up, even if you’re the strongest person in the world, eventually it does chip away at you. You don’t even realize that you’re losing yourself. And that’s the scariest place to be in life.
“I don’t want to lose myself. I love myself too much,” Ciara adds. “I love life too much.”
“Once you’re able to really be truly truthful with yourself, it’s life-changing,” the pop star admits. “You have way more compassion than you imagine, you’re sensitive to the right things.”
Welcoming son Future Jr. in May 2014 taught her patience, “above all.”
Ciara’s 2-year-old son can’t wait to welcome a sibling. “He’ll randomly pull my shirt up and be like, ‘I want to see the baby. Hello, baby. How you doing, baby? I love you, baby. OK, talk to you later, baby. Bye, bye,'” she gushes. “Then he’ll kiss me on my belly and put my shirt back down.”
Throughout her pregnancy, Ciara has been craving oranges and ice water (and Japanese green tea if she needs caffeine). As her due date approaches, the singer says, “I’m just super excited about this time in my life. Like, Oh my gosh, I can see my son running around, and soon it’s going to be two of these creatures running around! Our hands will be full of non-stop action.”
Published at Tue, 07 Mar 2017 15:55:00 +0000